what in THE hell am i doing?

no, no...really...what in the HELL am i doing? i think i just made the worst decision of my life. not the worse, cause i dont know how it is going to turn out.

i just agreed to work at the berlin festival. eeeeeeeks! aaaaack!!!!! HOLY SHIT!

what does this mean? fuck! i have to go home, quit my job, go to berlin and then come back to unemployment. i dont know if this was such a great decision. ummm....i was JUST getting out of debt....just getting stable, and now look at me!

okay, i am freaking out a bit!