I have decided that I take myself WAY too seriously. I take life WAY too seriously. This is a new thing...I think back, and two years ago...I was more kickback...more relaxed...I was able to let things go. I am not quite sure how I have become so high strung...so worried, so concerned, so SERIOUS. I find myself very annoying. LOL!

Short and sweet for certain....I need to relax...need to believe (like I once did) that everything will be okay....everything will work out as its supposed to. Remember (a week over) two years ago, Manda and I made actual plans on how to get to the DMB show in Albuquerque. IT WAS THE NIGHT BEFORE THE CONCERT!!! Somewhere along the way, we made plans to go to the LA show, and for me to stay in Vegas with everyone. I cant believe it was TWO years ago, at the same time, I cant believe it was ONLY 2 years ago that I met Amanda, ICE, etc...It seems a lot longer than that.

Not to mention...FOUR years ago...sheesh...changed my life, my perspective, my ideals, my personality. I wont get into it, 'cause I dont think that period of time REALLY needs to be revisitied.

Anywho. Life needs a different perspective, a different outlook. I am going to kill myself if I keep going at this rate.

:)