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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

So....found out last night that my brother, his wife and 4 kids are moving to Utah. They sold their house last year...and moved into a rental...with the hopes of finding a bigger home to buy, that was in more of a location that they would like. Their lease on their rental house is up in July, and basically just cant find a home that fits what they want, for a reasonable price. The price of homes in Arizona has skyrocketed beyond belief. So it makes sense for them to move up to Utah. They can build a custom home, the way they like it, with exactly what they want, with some land...for a really great price. The kids will be able to grow up next to their cousins, Melissa will be close to her sisters and parents. Its just a really great move for them right now.

Along with that...my parents are pretty for sure moving up there too. Since they bought their house 10 years ago, at a great price...they can pretty much make triple on it now, and pay cash for a home in Utah. They don't need anything THAT big, because all the kids are grown up...and with the exception of Zane, moved out. He will be moving out soon anyways, going on a mission, or whatever he chooses. They could use all that money that they make from their house in AZ to put away for retirement. They don't have ANY money put away, and its not like they are 25 with plenty of time to start saving. They are at retirement age right now, they REALLY need to start taking it slow, and enjoying everything they are supposed to enjoy in retirement. I don't think either of them are ready to stop working, but definitely ready to start cutting back, and living at a slower pace. Moving to Utah will allow that. They are opening a new hospital in Park City, so I think my dad is looking at getting on there. And they are looking for teachers in the Heber/Midway area, which is where they will live, so my mom can get a job there. Basically, its a good move for them too.

Selfishly (because you know, its ALL about me) I am not sure how I feel about my family no longer living in Arizona. No, I do know how I feel about them moving. It makes me sad, and I makes me scared, and it makes me feel trapped and left out (a little), and just real fearful of what the future holds. I guess I have always had it in my "plan" that I wouldn't live in Louisville for forever. I don't want to live here for forever...and I guess I always imagined us moving to Arizona to live around my family (and well, Jon's mom now too) and raising our kids. My family moving to Utah makes me sit and think whether or not my desire to move back to Arizona was because I LOVE Arizona (which I do), or because I miss my family and want to live near them (which, I do). The thought of moving to Utah, does not excite me...Definitely not Heber/Midway area (way too small town for me!), but I guess Salt Lake would be okay again (and he maybe they would hire me year round at Sundance...which would be a dream!). BUT, even the thought of moving to Arizona, without my parents there, still excites me (in some ways even more... we can carve out our own way of life there, and not have judgment). I guess, it all just scares me because I don't know WHEN we will get out of Louisville now...and I don't know WHEN (or how easy) its going to be to see my family...and I just feel, kind of...lost I suppose. Abandoned, I guess.

Which is all really stupid and crazy because for the love of Pete, I am almost 30 years old...Shouldn't I be more independent by now?

I don't know...Its just weird.

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