anyone ever feel absolutely, completely, 100% alone sometimes? sure there are TONS of people around all the time, everywhere, so factually you arent alone. but, you FEEL alone?
Case in point. Since I am still new at this job, there STILL isnt much to do for me...which for the record I cant WAIT until I dont have time to check email, or surf the Internet, or blog. So that means, the bulk of my day is spent trying to find something to do so that I dont feel completely useless. Well, this job is 100% more lenient than my last job...we all kind of come in when we want, and leave when we want...just as long as we put in a good day's work, ya know? Plus its the down season...so we arent rushing around trying to get stuff done. Well, my boss is taking a half day today, her boss is on vacation, and the assistant is taking a half day...so that leaves me. here. alone. for the rest of the day. i dont have anything to do....so do i leave early? what if they find out (which i dont think they would care if it was like at 3 or something)? but if i stay...i will literally be sitting here, alone.
adding to my alone feelings...just called jonathon to see if he wanted to meet me for lunch. man, there is only one thing worse than getting rejected and shot down by the opposite sex when you are single....getting rejected and shot down BY YOUR HUSBAND! WHAM! totally shot down! it was as if i had grown a third head! his excuse? "i am lazy and dont want to really go anywhere". uhhh, okay....shot down with a shitty excuse! dang...that hurt.(of course he will have bounds of energy when he wants to go to a concert tonight, or when he wants to drive to nashville next tuesday for a concert)
so. yeah. loneliness. sucks. dont know what to do with myself. i could leave early and go to the gym, but dammit, the day that i am motivated and actually get up and go to the gym before work is the day that i could totally leave early and go to kickboxing or something. maybe ill do that anyways...cant hurt, right? maybe i will get in shape faster....MAYBE I CAN EAT ICE CREAM LATER IF I DO THAT?!!!!!
why not go home and take a nap and enjoy being at home alone, you ask? well....BECAUSE MY IN-LAWS ARE STILL THERE, bored and i cant feel comfortable in my house when they are there. i dont want to be there when they are there.
In somewhat happy news, i think i am going to take this friday off to meet up with my parents in salt lake. they are going this weekend to find some land to buy, so they can start building a house to move in to next year. i honestly cannot wait! it is very rare, and has been most of my life, that i get to spend alone time with my parents. my brothers will be in arizona...and jon isnt going. i cant wait to see them! and in salt lake....that will be fun to see it again! maybe i will look patrick or katie up (sundance peeps) to see whats up with them. or maybe i will just enjoy the time with the 'rents.
GAH! what does one do when they are bored? again, i think i have finished the Internet, I dont know what else to look at or read or research? maybe i will learn the rules of a new sport?
Case in point. Since I am still new at this job, there STILL isnt much to do for me...which for the record I cant WAIT until I dont have time to check email, or surf the Internet, or blog. So that means, the bulk of my day is spent trying to find something to do so that I dont feel completely useless. Well, this job is 100% more lenient than my last job...we all kind of come in when we want, and leave when we want...just as long as we put in a good day's work, ya know? Plus its the down season...so we arent rushing around trying to get stuff done. Well, my boss is taking a half day today, her boss is on vacation, and the assistant is taking a half day...so that leaves me. here. alone. for the rest of the day. i dont have anything to do....so do i leave early? what if they find out (which i dont think they would care if it was like at 3 or something)? but if i stay...i will literally be sitting here, alone.
adding to my alone feelings...just called jonathon to see if he wanted to meet me for lunch. man, there is only one thing worse than getting rejected and shot down by the opposite sex when you are single....getting rejected and shot down BY YOUR HUSBAND! WHAM! totally shot down! it was as if i had grown a third head! his excuse? "i am lazy and dont want to really go anywhere". uhhh, okay....shot down with a shitty excuse! dang...that hurt.(of course he will have bounds of energy when he wants to go to a concert tonight, or when he wants to drive to nashville next tuesday for a concert)
so. yeah. loneliness. sucks. dont know what to do with myself. i could leave early and go to the gym, but dammit, the day that i am motivated and actually get up and go to the gym before work is the day that i could totally leave early and go to kickboxing or something. maybe ill do that anyways...cant hurt, right? maybe i will get in shape faster....MAYBE I CAN EAT ICE CREAM LATER IF I DO THAT?!!!!!
why not go home and take a nap and enjoy being at home alone, you ask? well....BECAUSE MY IN-LAWS ARE STILL THERE, bored and i cant feel comfortable in my house when they are there. i dont want to be there when they are there.
In somewhat happy news, i think i am going to take this friday off to meet up with my parents in salt lake. they are going this weekend to find some land to buy, so they can start building a house to move in to next year. i honestly cannot wait! it is very rare, and has been most of my life, that i get to spend alone time with my parents. my brothers will be in arizona...and jon isnt going. i cant wait to see them! and in salt lake....that will be fun to see it again! maybe i will look patrick or katie up (sundance peeps) to see whats up with them. or maybe i will just enjoy the time with the 'rents.
GAH! what does one do when they are bored? again, i think i have finished the Internet, I dont know what else to look at or read or research? maybe i will learn the rules of a new sport?
1 Comments:
At 2:09 PM,
Nikki said…
Rach, we should really try to meet up to have lunch or something sometime - is there any place between louisville and cincy to go shopping and/or have lunch that is south of florence?
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