i logged in to talk about wedding crap...but let me go off on another tangent for a moment.
so for the love of pete...i ruined the video of the boone! shoot me. kill me....whatever it takes to stop talking about how *I* walked in front of the camera during blue water. I mean GEEEZ! leave it alone. i know i did it...i know! fucking i feel bad for it. but good god, its not the END of the world....not even fucking close. let it go! seriously, if i get one more person IMing me saying "yeah...so i heard you ruined the boone tape. ethan/damien wont stop talking about it" god. FUCKING SHOOT ME ALREADY! i ruined a dmb video (that the band doesnt even allow anyways!)....omg...omg...omg...what the fuck are all you people going to do? shit...no good video of dave doing ONE VERSE of blue water. shit. what else are you all going to whack off to? oooh, wait...how about miami when he did the ENTIRE fucking song? wait. wait. thats no good....i forget...you all get boners at the mear thought of dave doing something "rare". kiss my ass....seriously. who the hell cares?
not to mention...do i even get to see ANY of the videos that ethan/damien (i had some really RUDE comment to put right here, but, because i am a nice person...i am refraining) makes? uuuhhh, no. so why SHOULD i even feel bad for walking back to my seat after taking a piss break? not only that...but when some asshole tells me to "fucking go around". yeah, like i am going to say "okay..." and walk away with a smile. no...not anymore. he has no right to tell me to do that! not only that...but IF ethan would have just said..."rach...we are videoing" (i had NO idea it was even ethan until the end of the show)...yeah, i would have walked away. besides the fact that woods pulled me through.
but there is no need to defend myself. cause...after all...i messed up the boone video. apparently that is a life ending crisis...and i should really take into consideration my "real fan" status in the dmb community! i mean...what would i BE without these people? what would i do without being a "real dmb" fan. sheesh, i might ACTUALLY get a life, and live it!
whatever. and just as a precaution...for all 3 (maybe) of you that actually care to read my blog, i am sure you know that none of the "you people" and "yous" were geared towards you personally. i am talking in general....you, as in the community.
edit. edit. edit.
uhg. now i dont even want to rant about wedding stuff. in preface...and to save you all some reading time and me some typing time, i might as well just hand the entire thing over to my mother and sister-in-law. cause i am sure they have it all planned accordingly. a nice mormon wedding for me, with a nice lacey....fully covered wedding dress to top it all off, and a nice "clean" honeymoon to somewhere like, Park City...because you know...."you are gonna have sex". nothing TOO riske!
my mother finally decided to call me....two weeks after getting engaged...to talk about the wedding. it went something like this:
mom: have you picked a date yet?
me: not really...but we have been thinking about October.
mom: what? raaach....why not the summer? uhg....not october! i wish you would pick june...so then i can have time to plan.
me: silence (see, i have yet to master the sticking up for myself where my mother is concerned trick, so i use silence...she knows what that means)
mom: is there a special reason why you want to wait until october, and not get married ASAP....?
me: (thinking to myself) well...i thought october might be a little quick anyways. plus...depending on WHERE we have the wedding, october is a nice time of year pretty much anywhere. not to mention, jonathon would like to have his brother there, if not involved...and he happens to be in iraq...in the midst of a war. not sure when he is coming back. (i actually told her the part about jeff).
end of that conversation. moving onto another:
mom: have you looked at wedding dresses?
me: well, i have been looking online...
mom: find any that you like? (notice the use of YOU LIKE. stupidly, i took that as her asking ME what dresses *I* liked...and would want to wear. i of course should have been smarter, and KNOWN that it actually meant what dresses would SHE like me to walk down the aisle in.)
me: yeah, blah, blah, blah....(explained to her what i was looking at and the style).
mom: find any with long sleeves? (meaning..."find any a little more 'modest', cause we are having alot of our friends to your wedding, and we cant have you coming across as 'immodest'...what on EARTH will they think about us if our daughter has a sleevless wedding dress?")
oooh you have GOT to be kidding me! last time i checked...this was MY wedding. like i said, maybe i will just hand it all over to my family, let them marry jonathon...and i will take off to figi, not looking back...and lay naked on the beach with a smile! how is that for modest?
i really SHOULD give her some slack. i mean...i am the only daughter, and they have been waiting to plan my wedding since i got my period when i was a pre-teen. after all, 27 and unmarried...in many people's eyes...i am OLD!
she really only has good intentions. and if she really knew that i was venting, and that i was feeling pressured by her, she would feel really bad and it would hurt her feelings. a great, great woman, my mother. she really is. and she is really happy for me and excited. i cant really complain about that.
i am just in a mood (in case you didnt notice).
anyway.
so for the love of pete...i ruined the video of the boone! shoot me. kill me....whatever it takes to stop talking about how *I* walked in front of the camera during blue water. I mean GEEEZ! leave it alone. i know i did it...i know! fucking i feel bad for it. but good god, its not the END of the world....not even fucking close. let it go! seriously, if i get one more person IMing me saying "yeah...so i heard you ruined the boone tape. ethan/damien wont stop talking about it" god. FUCKING SHOOT ME ALREADY! i ruined a dmb video (that the band doesnt even allow anyways!)....omg...omg...omg...what the fuck are all you people going to do? shit...no good video of dave doing ONE VERSE of blue water. shit. what else are you all going to whack off to? oooh, wait...how about miami when he did the ENTIRE fucking song? wait. wait. thats no good....i forget...you all get boners at the mear thought of dave doing something "rare". kiss my ass....seriously. who the hell cares?
not to mention...do i even get to see ANY of the videos that ethan/damien (i had some really RUDE comment to put right here, but, because i am a nice person...i am refraining) makes? uuuhhh, no. so why SHOULD i even feel bad for walking back to my seat after taking a piss break? not only that...but when some asshole tells me to "fucking go around". yeah, like i am going to say "okay..." and walk away with a smile. no...not anymore. he has no right to tell me to do that! not only that...but IF ethan would have just said..."rach...we are videoing" (i had NO idea it was even ethan until the end of the show)...yeah, i would have walked away. besides the fact that woods pulled me through.
but there is no need to defend myself. cause...after all...i messed up the boone video. apparently that is a life ending crisis...and i should really take into consideration my "real fan" status in the dmb community! i mean...what would i BE without these people? what would i do without being a "real dmb" fan. sheesh, i might ACTUALLY get a life, and live it!
whatever. and just as a precaution...for all 3 (maybe) of you that actually care to read my blog, i am sure you know that none of the "you people" and "yous" were geared towards you personally. i am talking in general....you, as in the community.
edit. edit. edit.
uhg. now i dont even want to rant about wedding stuff. in preface...and to save you all some reading time and me some typing time, i might as well just hand the entire thing over to my mother and sister-in-law. cause i am sure they have it all planned accordingly. a nice mormon wedding for me, with a nice lacey....fully covered wedding dress to top it all off, and a nice "clean" honeymoon to somewhere like, Park City...because you know...."you are gonna have sex". nothing TOO riske!
my mother finally decided to call me....two weeks after getting engaged...to talk about the wedding. it went something like this:
mom: have you picked a date yet?
me: not really...but we have been thinking about October.
mom: what? raaach....why not the summer? uhg....not october! i wish you would pick june...so then i can have time to plan.
me: silence (see, i have yet to master the sticking up for myself where my mother is concerned trick, so i use silence...she knows what that means)
mom: is there a special reason why you want to wait until october, and not get married ASAP....?
me: (thinking to myself) well...i thought october might be a little quick anyways. plus...depending on WHERE we have the wedding, october is a nice time of year pretty much anywhere. not to mention, jonathon would like to have his brother there, if not involved...and he happens to be in iraq...in the midst of a war. not sure when he is coming back. (i actually told her the part about jeff).
end of that conversation. moving onto another:
mom: have you looked at wedding dresses?
me: well, i have been looking online...
mom: find any that you like? (notice the use of YOU LIKE. stupidly, i took that as her asking ME what dresses *I* liked...and would want to wear. i of course should have been smarter, and KNOWN that it actually meant what dresses would SHE like me to walk down the aisle in.)
me: yeah, blah, blah, blah....(explained to her what i was looking at and the style).
mom: find any with long sleeves? (meaning..."find any a little more 'modest', cause we are having alot of our friends to your wedding, and we cant have you coming across as 'immodest'...what on EARTH will they think about us if our daughter has a sleevless wedding dress?")
oooh you have GOT to be kidding me! last time i checked...this was MY wedding. like i said, maybe i will just hand it all over to my family, let them marry jonathon...and i will take off to figi, not looking back...and lay naked on the beach with a smile! how is that for modest?
i really SHOULD give her some slack. i mean...i am the only daughter, and they have been waiting to plan my wedding since i got my period when i was a pre-teen. after all, 27 and unmarried...in many people's eyes...i am OLD!
she really only has good intentions. and if she really knew that i was venting, and that i was feeling pressured by her, she would feel really bad and it would hurt her feelings. a great, great woman, my mother. she really is. and she is really happy for me and excited. i cant really complain about that.
i am just in a mood (in case you didnt notice).
anyway.
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