so yeah...its officially official...i am bored. bored. bored. its apparent that i, rachael bree, need a job. yes. the time has come. of course, all this time has not gone by without looking and sending my resume to open positions. today is the day, however, i feel the "getting down on myself" feeling coming on. the "why doesnt anyone ever call for an interview" and the "how come everyone else can find a job" have all begun, and the discouragement that comes along with job searching is in full effect. the doomed feeling that i have at the thought of not having a job for next week is depressing.

of course, yes, i know it was MY choice to quit stage one, and i dont regret it at all...in fact it was the right thing to do...however, i just wish that people would call when they look at my resume. it makes me wonder...what do people think when they see it. its actually quite impressive....to me anyway....but i wonder if people just take out a match and burn it. i mean, there cant be THAT many people that have the same experience that i do, and are going for the same jobs as i am...can there? uhg.

let the black hole of depression begin.