the thing about being down in the dumps is that it takes SO much energy to get yourself out. uhg, i lack ANY motivation. no motivation to plan this wedding (just when i think i have crossed some things off my list for that, the list grows....there is ALOT to do still! its tiring.), ZERO motivation to go out and find a job. none, zilch....i dont even have the motivation to sit in front of the tv and watch it all day. restless, yet not motivated to do a damn thing.

the cat went missing yesterday. no idea where she went to, but we both went to bed fairly upset that she was gone. lo and behold the kitty struts in at like 6 am this morning, as if nothing were wrong. dumb cat! it is nice to have her back though, i think we both realized how attached we have become to her. she fits our personalities perfectly...lazy, unmotivated, wants to be left alone until she doesnt. thats jon and rachael.

anyway. i am TRYING to motivate myself to get motivated today. i want to get a ton of wedding crap done this week so that i dont have to think or worry about them anymore:

block rooms
menu
officiant
cake
invites (and everything that goes along with that)
rings

so yeah. stuff. i wish i my sister in law lived close, or val. it would be more fun to do all of this stuff with someone to help.

anyway. so yeah. motivate me.