so an update on the phases...yeah, i got over phase (what was it?) 5 (???)...and have moved onto phase 6 and maybe even 7. which are...6: the "i went shopping today, and man are there some really nice and cute clothes that i would LOVE to buy.....i need a job" phase. this includes contemplating going and getting an application at, yes...i am going to say it, Victoria's Secret (again) OR to changes retail things up (and because i am older, more mature...hahahahaha) Pottery Barn. its the holiday season coming up, so i would most likely work quite a bit. they would probably let me have two weeks off for my wedding etc...so yeah.
phase 7: the phase where you call a temp agency to let them know you are still around, and the say (miraculously) they have the "perfect" job for you! "OHHH....what is it???" "well, rachael, its with a marketing company....and they are looking for someone proficient in word and excel to....generate labels!" "generate what? labels????"
okay, so phase 7 is when you are told of a job....offered it actually, and the job is SO meaningless to you...in fact (in your opinion) so "beneath" (that sounds so pretentious) you, and SO much like the job that you just quit, that you turn it down. of course this is after thinking about it for a few hours, and talking it over with jonathon. the money was even less than what i was making at stage one, and the job was only temporary. though it would have been nice to take it, and to be making SOME money....we decided that i should hold out for something better.
okay, my thoughts on this are also...somewhat resentful. IF jonathon, or my brother, or my mom, or like, Val or something were offered a job like that, they wouldnt think twice about turning it down. where as...for me...ALL of them would have had to think about me taking it. so, i asked myself, why is it that this job would not have been good enough for any of them, yet its good enough for me? and is that just MY perception or the way that i think of things and myself, as opposed to the way they think of them selves. Everyone I know would never "settle" for something, yet....I often do...just because I dont think I am "worthy" of anything better. Well....I wasnt going to do that with this job, besides, I want to find a permanent job....I dont want to have to be looking for another job in 3 months. ya know?
yeah. rampage.....oh wow. is that still a clothing store? anyone ever heard of that store? manda? maybe that was a wyoming thing.
phase 7: the phase where you call a temp agency to let them know you are still around, and the say (miraculously) they have the "perfect" job for you! "OHHH....what is it???" "well, rachael, its with a marketing company....and they are looking for someone proficient in word and excel to....generate labels!" "generate what? labels????"
okay, so phase 7 is when you are told of a job....offered it actually, and the job is SO meaningless to you...in fact (in your opinion) so "beneath" (that sounds so pretentious) you, and SO much like the job that you just quit, that you turn it down. of course this is after thinking about it for a few hours, and talking it over with jonathon. the money was even less than what i was making at stage one, and the job was only temporary. though it would have been nice to take it, and to be making SOME money....we decided that i should hold out for something better.
okay, my thoughts on this are also...somewhat resentful. IF jonathon, or my brother, or my mom, or like, Val or something were offered a job like that, they wouldnt think twice about turning it down. where as...for me...ALL of them would have had to think about me taking it. so, i asked myself, why is it that this job would not have been good enough for any of them, yet its good enough for me? and is that just MY perception or the way that i think of things and myself, as opposed to the way they think of them selves. Everyone I know would never "settle" for something, yet....I often do...just because I dont think I am "worthy" of anything better. Well....I wasnt going to do that with this job, besides, I want to find a permanent job....I dont want to have to be looking for another job in 3 months. ya know?
yeah. rampage.....oh wow. is that still a clothing store? anyone ever heard of that store? manda? maybe that was a wyoming thing.
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