well, i gotta say...10 days was PURE bliss! sure we argued, sure we were frustrated with each other, sure we got annoyed with each other...but you know what? WE ARE MARRIED! thats what we are supposed to do! and it was blissful! wanna know why? because we didnt HAVE to do all those things (and others...*giggle*) upstairs, or in a low whisper. we were able to do it ALL in our house...alone...as a married couple should do all that kind of stuff.
We redid the bathroom (BLISS!!!) the way WE wanted it done! We did lawn work...I did OUR laundry...I vacumed OUR house! We did house stuff! for 10 FULL days, it was OUR house...and it was wonderful!
I have realized today...in the whole hour that I have talked with my mother-in-law since she has been back, that even though we had this wonderful talk and "got everything out in the open", that i am still very frustrated, and still very resentful, and still very irritated with her (them) being here. i guess what is MOST irriting is that there isnt an end in sight. sure she says "sepetember MAX", but how can we believe that when she keeps pushing it back? Not only that, but what happened to "dont worry, i wont be there at ALL...i have TONS of trips to Atlanta and Arizona planned for June and July? Today its "i have a week long training trip that i am going on, at the end of July, late august". and, how come she is going on a week long TRAINING trip, if she is planning on quitting BY September? does thta make any sense, except that she ISNT planning on quitting? that doesnt sound like someone who is planning on quitting. THAT is what's frustrating. I would NOT have gotten into this "deal" with them, if it meant that i would be living with my in-laws for a prolonged period of time (when presented...the deal was june "at the VERY max"). PLEASE dont get me wrong, i love them, they are great wonderful, generous, people....I would just rather not LIVE with them. I would feel the same way about my parents too.
Now, I mentioned to her today that my family is coming to visit me in July (yeah!). She was NOT pleased...and I am sorry, I REFUSE to make my parents and little brother (and possibly Kreed) stay in a hotel when I have a 4 BEDROOM house! no way! either someone has to go, or someone has to sleep on the couch. but see, that STILL bothers me that Zane would have to sleep on the couch...I dont know. Once again, I am frustrated with the situation.
I am not sure what to do about it either. I am SO frustrated that when I even talk to anyone about it...i just get more so. Its like "what can ya do?"...THATs what is frustrating. this may sound real bad and awful...but i just want them to LEAVE! move already!
However, I have realized that they have a very different idea of the definition of "moving" that i do. To me...to move, or moving, or moved, or any variation of the word, means to LEAVE, with ALL your stuff...and make another location your PERMANANT home. you LIVE there. ALL the time. Like Amanda. she MOVED to seattle. she packed ALL of her stuff, and MOVED. she doesnt PLAN on going back (unless to VISIT). she changed her address to seattle, she said her goodbyes...she MOVED. to my in-laws, i think they think it means "our house in Phoenix, and our house in Louisville". today, i have realized that they will never MOVE from louisville. EVER! because when THEY "move", they are always on a flight back within 2-3 weeks for something "important". now, does that sound like "moved"? i mean its totally cool if they want to stay in louisville. great! i would LOVE for them to be in this city. but...um...either kick us out of "their" home, or move out of "ours". LET US BE MARRIED!
uhg, i am getting myself all worked up, and in an angry way. i just want to not feel like i am a teenager. i want to feel as if we are married and have A home that is OURS. i want PRIVICY, ALL THE TIME...not 10 days a month. I WANT A HOME THAT IS OURS! I want a home that our family has to CALL and ASK us if WHEN they can visit, instead of just telling us they are going to be here such and such days and not caring if we are here or not.
help? i am irritated and frustrated and angry and pissed off.
anyone? help me...please?
We redid the bathroom (BLISS!!!) the way WE wanted it done! We did lawn work...I did OUR laundry...I vacumed OUR house! We did house stuff! for 10 FULL days, it was OUR house...and it was wonderful!
I have realized today...in the whole hour that I have talked with my mother-in-law since she has been back, that even though we had this wonderful talk and "got everything out in the open", that i am still very frustrated, and still very resentful, and still very irritated with her (them) being here. i guess what is MOST irriting is that there isnt an end in sight. sure she says "sepetember MAX", but how can we believe that when she keeps pushing it back? Not only that, but what happened to "dont worry, i wont be there at ALL...i have TONS of trips to Atlanta and Arizona planned for June and July? Today its "i have a week long training trip that i am going on, at the end of July, late august". and, how come she is going on a week long TRAINING trip, if she is planning on quitting BY September? does thta make any sense, except that she ISNT planning on quitting? that doesnt sound like someone who is planning on quitting. THAT is what's frustrating. I would NOT have gotten into this "deal" with them, if it meant that i would be living with my in-laws for a prolonged period of time (when presented...the deal was june "at the VERY max"). PLEASE dont get me wrong, i love them, they are great wonderful, generous, people....I would just rather not LIVE with them. I would feel the same way about my parents too.
Now, I mentioned to her today that my family is coming to visit me in July (yeah!). She was NOT pleased...and I am sorry, I REFUSE to make my parents and little brother (and possibly Kreed) stay in a hotel when I have a 4 BEDROOM house! no way! either someone has to go, or someone has to sleep on the couch. but see, that STILL bothers me that Zane would have to sleep on the couch...I dont know. Once again, I am frustrated with the situation.
I am not sure what to do about it either. I am SO frustrated that when I even talk to anyone about it...i just get more so. Its like "what can ya do?"...THATs what is frustrating. this may sound real bad and awful...but i just want them to LEAVE! move already!
However, I have realized that they have a very different idea of the definition of "moving" that i do. To me...to move, or moving, or moved, or any variation of the word, means to LEAVE, with ALL your stuff...and make another location your PERMANANT home. you LIVE there. ALL the time. Like Amanda. she MOVED to seattle. she packed ALL of her stuff, and MOVED. she doesnt PLAN on going back (unless to VISIT). she changed her address to seattle, she said her goodbyes...she MOVED. to my in-laws, i think they think it means "our house in Phoenix, and our house in Louisville". today, i have realized that they will never MOVE from louisville. EVER! because when THEY "move", they are always on a flight back within 2-3 weeks for something "important". now, does that sound like "moved"? i mean its totally cool if they want to stay in louisville. great! i would LOVE for them to be in this city. but...um...either kick us out of "their" home, or move out of "ours". LET US BE MARRIED!
uhg, i am getting myself all worked up, and in an angry way. i just want to not feel like i am a teenager. i want to feel as if we are married and have A home that is OURS. i want PRIVICY, ALL THE TIME...not 10 days a month. I WANT A HOME THAT IS OURS! I want a home that our family has to CALL and ASK us if WHEN they can visit, instead of just telling us they are going to be here such and such days and not caring if we are here or not.
help? i am irritated and frustrated and angry and pissed off.
anyone? help me...please?
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