Your Daily Horoscope for December 24, 2002
Don't let things get stagnant, RACHAEL; it is time to take action. In everything you to today, see how far you can go as opposed to how deep you can go. Cover a wide range of topics and pick up a magazine or two. Take a break from your usual emotional intensity and simply enjoy the sunshine and the light conversation of others. Keep things energetic and upbeat. Take action when you see that things are lagging behind.
riiiiight. cause "keeping it light" is SO easy for me. tyeah, i wish!
so yeah, back from the dmb weekend in nyc and dc. have to admit, the entire trip was one night too long. it should have just ended with the nyc show. thats in every aspect of the trip. the dc show was less than steller in my opinion (not to mention, VERY ironic....uhg, its comical if you think about it i guess. serves me right. but again, WHY the fuck is she always around? i am trying really hard not to read into that. and why is that she and ice talk the minute i turn to go to the restroom and get him a beer, yet immediately stop when i come around? again, trying really hard not to read into that. but fuck, if you want to talk to her, than fucking talk to her, and vice versa on her part. dont let me stand in the way. i am at the point now, where i just dont care. go. talk. have fun.), and hanging out with all the freaks for one more night just shouldnt have happened. either that, or i should have gone to bed right after the show like i was really wanting to. outta sight, outta mind...which is where i am intentionally headed now. of course, now the adjustment of getting back to "real life" has begun...and its christmas. yeah, i suppose.
anyway...so, ever feel as if you are a burdon to someone? as if you just cause them stress? i feel in many ways, thats what i am to jon. more so than ever right now. with his job stuff....and then just me, as a person. uhg....sometimes its just gotta be "enough already". once again, i feel as if i can put these thoughts and feelings up here because there are only a couple of people that read it, and i know that jon doesnt read it much, if at all. regardless, sometimes things just gotta be put out there and said, for sanity's sake.
uhg. how is that for "keeping it light"?
Don't let things get stagnant, RACHAEL; it is time to take action. In everything you to today, see how far you can go as opposed to how deep you can go. Cover a wide range of topics and pick up a magazine or two. Take a break from your usual emotional intensity and simply enjoy the sunshine and the light conversation of others. Keep things energetic and upbeat. Take action when you see that things are lagging behind.
riiiiight. cause "keeping it light" is SO easy for me. tyeah, i wish!
so yeah, back from the dmb weekend in nyc and dc. have to admit, the entire trip was one night too long. it should have just ended with the nyc show. thats in every aspect of the trip. the dc show was less than steller in my opinion (not to mention, VERY ironic....uhg, its comical if you think about it i guess. serves me right. but again, WHY the fuck is she always around? i am trying really hard not to read into that. and why is that she and ice talk the minute i turn to go to the restroom and get him a beer, yet immediately stop when i come around? again, trying really hard not to read into that. but fuck, if you want to talk to her, than fucking talk to her, and vice versa on her part. dont let me stand in the way. i am at the point now, where i just dont care. go. talk. have fun.), and hanging out with all the freaks for one more night just shouldnt have happened. either that, or i should have gone to bed right after the show like i was really wanting to. outta sight, outta mind...which is where i am intentionally headed now. of course, now the adjustment of getting back to "real life" has begun...and its christmas. yeah, i suppose.
anyway...so, ever feel as if you are a burdon to someone? as if you just cause them stress? i feel in many ways, thats what i am to jon. more so than ever right now. with his job stuff....and then just me, as a person. uhg....sometimes its just gotta be "enough already". once again, i feel as if i can put these thoughts and feelings up here because there are only a couple of people that read it, and i know that jon doesnt read it much, if at all. regardless, sometimes things just gotta be put out there and said, for sanity's sake.
uhg. how is that for "keeping it light"?
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